It Simply Is

As a child I was very fortunate to have an adult in my life who taught me, dying is no big deal, it is simply part of life.  Being taught that so young is a big help in the work I do now. 

As I learned dying is part of life I also learned that I could miss the human or animal, be sad and then life went on.  I did not understand then that I was being taught not to let my emotions rule me.  They play a part and are not the whole part.  I began to see when I am emotional it is about me.

I thought that the emotional state was love.  That being upset was how love was.  At some point I began to understand if being emotional was about me then I was forgetting about the other being.  Which led me to see love is about the other being.  It is about allowing the other being to experience what they need.  It is not about me. 

When I am working with animals who are dying they show me they do not understand why their human is upset.  They think they have done something wrong to upset the human.  To them dying is no big deal, it simply is.  To them it is the dying rhythm movement.  The rhythm in the body keeps slowing until it stops and when it stops the body is no longer functional.  They do not understand humans don’t get that. 

Often an animal who is dying will show me to tell their human to put them outside in a quiet place and go away.  Think about this, in the wild when an animal is dying they are either pushed out or they go off on their own find a quiet spot to die. 

I find myself in the middle of the animal way and the human way.  I see both sides while the animal or human only sees theirs.   By creating clarity of each point of view there is a place in the middle for understanding to bloom.  With that understanding things get a lot calmer.  In the calmer place dying simply is. 

The Other Horse

The horses have asked me to start writing about them and since my whole life has centered around them I agreed.

This week in the course of working with a long time client and her horse Mimi, a topic came up.  Often in a situation where there are two older horses, if one horse has to be put down the second horse is also put down.  The reasoning being that horses are a herd animal and being alone is a stressful situation for them.

Mimi has given me permission to tell her story of being the other horse.  Mimi and I have a long association.

Mimi and gelding David, both older horses, were  together for a long time.  In early May 2016 David was diagnosed with an anal tumor that was growing fast and would very soon block him from passing manure.  It was decided to put him down.  The vet’s assistant said that it was common to put the second down at the same time.  I worked with David to prepare him for leaving, he wanted more time and that was fine with his human.  As I worked with David, Mimi was given the opportunity to leave too.  She thought about it and decided she would stay knowing she would be alone.

Mimi’s human had me work with her in the weeks after David left and Mimi made the adjustment to being alone really well.  It did not take her long to realize she liked having all the attention.  It also gave her the opportunity to experience life a different way.  It allowed her to expand into herself and rely on herself.  That is a big step for a horse who is wired to be in a herd.  I am leaning life is about experiences and how we use those experiences.  We can grow, expand or not.  Animal or human.

Here she is in February 2018 still doing fine alone even though she has some health issues.

I shared Mimi’s story in an effort to show that it is possible for a horse to adjust to being alone.  Then it is up to each of you to make your own decisions.  No right or wrong.  Each situation is unique.  I am learning making blanket statements about any topic is not in the best interest.

Thanks Mimi it was great working with you again.


2018 is definitely an interesting ride.  Everyone human and animal are finding this new level of energy a bit of a challenge to live with.

In this challenge we are all experiencing something that I see showing up when I work, which are opposites.  Vaccinate, don’t vaccinate, feed raw, don’t feed raw, crate, don’t crate, leash, don’t leash and on it goes.  In these opposites are very strong opinions on each side of an issue.  What does this mean for our animals?

I have to remember these animals chose to live with a human.  So no victims.

In the work I do with a veterinarian in Colorado this issue of opposites comes up a lot.  My work allows me to see the effects of opposites on animals.  What I see are animals that are out of balance in the function of their bodies.  My job is to relay to the vet how the animal feels about the imbalance and the vet’s job is to find a way to physically bring the body into balance again.

Animals know about balance.  It is hard wired into their systems and it is not a thought process.  They innately know.  Humans on the other hand find balance a bit harder as we have a thought process about everything.  Which creates all these opinions about opposites.

I am not saying anything is wrong with an opposite.  However I am seeing the effect on an animal who lives with an opposite for a long period of time.

What is the solution?    Finding the middle spot between two opposites or balance.  It means we can take from both opposites.  It is not one or the other which is where we get stuck.  I am learning to step back from an issue which allows me a 360 degree view of the issue.  From that place I can see both opposites and the spot in the middle.  It allows me to stand in the middle of two opposites and draw from each into the middle.  When I do that I find balance and it is a nice place to be.

Also when I sit in the middle I find answers.   So simple.


Here we are in 2018. I think it is going to be an interesting ride. 

In the last few weeks I have had two different opportunities to talk to people who had come across a dog wandering on the street.  In both cases the people were concerned the dog would get hit by a car. The humans decided to intervene as they both felt a great deal of concern. The dogs, however, did not see there was a problem.  If they got hit by a car then that was what happens when you don’t pay attention.     

There was a great deal of conversation with me trying to explain the dogs point of view.  I saw a huge difference between the human and dog way of seeing it .   

This exchange left me with questions.  What are we supposed to do seeing a dog on the street?  When is it appropriate to intervene?  Do they want us to intervene?  Do we have the right to intervene?  I am not sure there are definitive answers.

Let me give the dog point of view.  First, they do not see themselves as victims, that judgment comes from humans.  Animals do not have judgments or a complicated thought process.  They are hard wired for whatever species they are, in this case dogs.  They do not have all the mental stuff humans have.  Life simply is for them.

I will share where I have come to on this subject.  I used to be the queen of thinking animals needed to be rescued.  I thought I knew what was best for them.  I look back and I cringe.  I see now I used  rescue as a distraction to keep me from looking at my own life. The truth was I wanted to be rescued so I thought they did too.    

It was not until years later when I started to look at my own life and realize it was up to me to make changes that I also started to see animals as beings with their own life path.  I came to the realization I am only responsible for me, a huge turning point.  The more I took responsibility for myself the less I focused on everyone else’s lives, human or animal.

Now when I see a dog on the street I ask “Is there anything you want from me?”  They say “no” and go on their way.

I leave it to you to come to your own conclusion.  There is no right or wrong way here.  It is a point of view. 

Since I have come to the awareness of letting the world be, no one is asking me to rescue them.  A nice peaceful place to be.


Winter Solstice

Today is the eve of the Winter Solstice and for me it is the end of the year.  We have been in a very large shift of energy as we are approaching the Winter Solstice.  The past few weeks everything has been very shaken up and we all, humans and animals alike have been feeling it.  The way it shows up for me is I feel I/we are being pushed to step it up another notch. The stepping it up is about being responsible for how we are in our lives.  It applies to the animals too, on their level. 

This past week I have just wanted to put my head under the covers and stay in bed.  I felt very scrambled and had a tough time functioning.  I had to remind myself all is fine, that I was feeling the affect of the shift in energy and things would settle down after the Winter Solstice.  I know this and it still does not make going through it any easier.  Everyone I worked with or talked to was feeling it too. 

The Universe had a helper in the cat, her demands to be fed meant I had to get out of bed. 

Here I am on the eve of a new year.  First I want to thank 2017.  It moved me across the country and put me in a place to expand.  It will be very interesting to see what this new year holds.  I am allowing myself to be willing to go outside my comfort zone in my life.  Not sure what that looks like and I don’t need to know right now.  I have decided to embrace this shift and let it take me beyond what I know.

I want to thank all of you for following my blog.  Knowing you are there is a great comfort and it keeps the door open for what wants to be written.         

I wish you all a Happy Winter Solstice!  Lets ride this wonderful wave just for the fun of it!  Lots of smiles. 

A Lot of Movement

The cat and I had a great 4 day trip across the country arriving in New Mexico on Sun. Nov. 12th.  She turned into “Princess Road Warrior Cat”.  Each night she just took possession of the hotel room.  It was fun to watch her come into her own.  This past month I was busy doing all the things one has to do when you make a big move.  Yesterday 12/11, I received my New Mexico drivers license in the mail, so I am officially here.   I had lived here between Oct. 1999 to Oct. 2003.  I think sometimes you have to leave a place to find out it really was your place.  I am loving being back.

Thank you Georgia for what you had to teach me in the 6 1/2 years I was there.  Now it will be interesting to see what New Mexico has for me especially with the work I do.  I will continue to do the phone work and the rest will unfold.  I am learning to stay out of expectation and allow myself to not to know.  There is freedom in that.

That is it for now we are here safely and all is well.

Now I have to see if I can remember how to use the new Jet Pack I got a couple of weeks ago so I can post this.  Facing a 1200 pound upset horse does not faze me, yet give me a new piece of technology to deal with and I am shaking in my boots.  Plain silly, yet true.


It has been awhile.

Lots of shake up and movement going on and all of that has me moving back to New Mexico on Nov. 9th.  The whole process took time and focus to get me to the place where I knew what I had to do, so writing got put on the back burner.  Then this morning a topic that keeps popping up grabbed me and here I am.

I hear over and over from people when I am working with them and their animal the concept  “quality of life” comes up in regard to their animals life.   Very often “quality of life” gets factored into the decision on whether to put an animal down or not.  I have a lot of animals yelling in my head, I am fine!

What is “quality of life”?  Who determines that?  What determines that?  Where did the idea come from?  What does it look like?  I have no clue what the answers are to those questions.  I can, however, tell you animals have no concept of “quality of life”.  From their point of view, if they are breathing they are alive and have life.  They live in the moment.

Recently I worked with a dog who could no longer get up on his own.  His human felt since he had no “quality of life” it was time to put him down.  The dog was very clear he wanted to stay in his body.

This dog had a very strong will and the experience of not being able to get up under his own power was an opportunity to accept help.  It was also an opportunity to learn his will could only do so much which he did not accept for a year.  He was blessed with a human who was able to care for him for a year, giving him the time to work it out with his will.

Just before he died on his own he showed me that his will could only do so much and that there was a bigger movement then his will.  This was a huge growth experience for him.  On the surface he had no “quality of life” yet his lack of mobility was a catalyst for him to figure out his will could only do so much.

This example is an extreme and I used it to demonstrate the concept “quality of life”.  It is not a straight line or black and white.  AND, I am NOT making some point about not putting animals down.  I am simply giving some food for thought about this concept of “quality of life”.

This work I do with animals has totally changed how I view life and it allows me the opportunity to share what I learn.  I share and you get to make up your own mind on what works for you and your animals.  It is so individual to each human and animal combination.  There are no blanket statements or one size fits all.

The adventure continues and it will be very interesting to see what unfolds in New Mexico.  Head em up, move em out!

Irma’s Visit

Irma left us early yesterday morning.  Everyone started breathing again.   I didn’t realize I was holding my breath until she was gone. 

The posts on “Experience” and “Allow”  that I wrote a couple of weeks ago came to life during Irma’s visit.   As the leading edge of her moved in on Monday morning I was given an opportunity to have the experience of bending.  My MO is to stand straight and ridged and do it myself.  By noon I began to see staying in a trailer surrounded by large oak trees was not the best place to be.   My wonderful friends who live across the road had already offered the cat and I stay with them.   I packed some things and the cat and I went across the road.  Why did I think bending was hard?  It felt really good to have company and feel safe. 

As I watched out of the picture window I felt pity for the trees who were being pushed roughly around by the wind and rain of Irma.   I had to stop and remind myself this is their experience.  They were not victims.  Why is it so hard for me to get that my pity is so unwanted.  They were fine.  And what did I think I could do for them?  Bring them inside?  

At 8 A.M. Tuesday morning I went across the road to take care of the ponies and check the trailer.  They and the trailer were fine, a relief.  That is when I noticed one of the large oak trees was down.   It was on the west side of the trailer and had fallen away from the trailer.  I walked to the tree, not only was it down but trees in it’s path were down too.  I really had to rein my emotions in and go to the allowing place.  The tree was glad I did that.  The tree showed me it was ok and that dying was a slow process.  In that process it had time to come to the realization that being rigid and not able to bend is what brought it down.  It showed me this was a huge lesson it was learning.  This was part of it’s inner growth and expansion.  It is life.  Dying is the greatest opportunity to evolve, expand. 

I told a friend in Colorado about the tree and she asked me for pictures.  Immediately the tree asked me not do this, it needed privacy.  I honored the request.  Dying is a very private time.

Irma brought a lot of experiences to process.   A big one is gratitude, not taking anything for granted.  Seeing the Divine at work in everything.   I am blessed beyond measure. 

Middle of Night Shakes

Last night I woke up at 3 A.M.  my mind filled with fear.  My fear was about Hurricane Irma and her visiting here.  I decided to stop using the word hit, visit is less ominous.  I realized my attitude of fear was affecting me and the animals in my care.  I was not being a strong leader for them.

Fear wants to control.  It wants to dictate and have things be it’s way.  The fear did not like the idea that it could not control being touched by Irma.  I began to see this as a lesson in surrender to the higher.  The higher attitude is; be aware of what is going on, take actions to prepare and keep my attitude accepting of what is.  When I did these things I felt calmer and I could see the animals were calmer.

As things happen I am learning to ask what does this have to teach me?  Rather then get caught up in the fear and drama.  What is there to learn about seeing things from a different point of view then I normally do.  Being aware how I am and how it affects everything around me.  If I get on the doom and gloom kick and place a lot of negative attention on Irma then I am contributing to the disturbance of her.  I am connected to everything around me.  Being higher or lower ripples out and it especially ripples out to the animals.   They do not understand my upset, all they know is the human is upset and they think they did something wrong.

There are people and animals facing much worse south of here, so I told my fear to get over itself.

What a time to be on Earth.  I am being given the opportunity to be more then I ever thought I could be. There are bumps and the bumps are gifts to evolve and grow.  Wow.

Labor Day

For me Labor Day is the end of summer which means the end of the lovely long hot days.  I am a heat and sunlight girl. 

Out of the blue this morning I started thinking about what Labor Day celebrates.  Labor!  On the heels of this came the realization, everything I use and have was created by someone else’s labor.  Everything!  Just blew me away.  It sounds really stupid that I never really stopped to think how the things I use got here. 

I started to imagine the thousands and thousands of people using their labor to make all the things in my life.   Then is broadened to all the people in service jobs, whose labor also contributes to my ease of life.  Truck drivers, waitresses, check out people, nurses, tech people, pilots, the list is huge. 

I am awe struck and it is a humbling moment.  Without all of them I can’t do my job.  That puts it is a certain perspective. 

I want to thank everyone out there for their labor.  Your labor makes my life doable, comfortable and allows me to do my  job. 

Thank you and bless you all.   Happy Labor Day!