Just Checking

The Universe does check on me.   I wrote about Experience and Allowing recently and I was given a test a couple of days ago.

I was sitting on the porch at the barn with the three barn cats.  Two were on the grass just off the porch and the third was at my feet demanding to be scratched.  Being a good slave I was doing my best to meet his demand.   We were enjoying the moment then suddenly a baby bird came out of it’s nest on the branch in front of the porch.  It tried to fly and it landed just behind the Gator and hopped under it.  The cat sprang into action in a flash.   The cat was under the Gator, grabbed the baby bird and raced into the barn before I was all the way out of the chair. 

As I ran to the barn door ready to intervene, I stopped.  I realized trying to get the baby bird from the cat was not what I needed to do.  My to do was to do nothing, really hard to stand aside and allow another being to have it’s experience.  It was a very dramatic scenario the Universe sent me.  That part of me that was taught to care for and defend had a tough time with allowing.  It was quite a range of emotions that went through me.

It was over instantly.  I heard a faint “I’m OK”, then everything was very still.  In spite of my upset there was a feeling of peace around me and that all was right and perfect.  I had to get over myself.  Who do I think I am to question another’s path.  The animals show me over and over that there are no accidents and that everything that happens is fine.  They do not need or want my pity or upset so I went and sat back down and simply got quiet.  Letting it all just be, allowing myself to be a being not a doing.  We are not called human doings, we are human beings.  I forget that.

The baby bird was fine, the cat was a cat and I got to be.  The Universe was just checking to see if I really got it.  Slowly, yes I am.  Thanks Universe. 

Allow

In my last post I wrote about everything in our lives is an experience, humans and animals alike.

For me the question came up, if I am to honor my animal’s experience what do I have to do?  What is the action or non-action?   The answer is allow.  I have to be willing to allow my animal to have their experience.   What does that look like?

For the past two years I have been working with Rick and his old, not well, dog Merlin.   It was a series of ups and downs and in the process Rick wanted very much to do what was best for Merlin.  At times the question of euthanasia came up.  Each time Merlin was very clear he wanted to be here and Rick got it.  There was a lot of care and management involved and what I saw was allowing.  Rick would stand back and allow Merlin to be with the condition of his body, allowing him to have the experience of the condition of his body.  I was in awe of the amount of care Rick was willing to give for two years and the whole time staying in allowing and at times it was not pretty, yet Rick stuck with it.

For the past six months it was a slow steady spiral of Merlin moving in the direction of dying.  Rick had some tough moments watching Merlin’s process and he was steadfast in allowing Merlin his experience.  In allowing we stand back and do not let our emotions take hold.  Allowing is a calm place, and not always comfortable.

A few days ago Rick called to check in with Merlin to make sure Merlin still wanted to leave in his own rhythm.  The answer was yes.  Although it was hard to watch, on one level, Rick said the feeling was very peaceful.  Merlin was gone in 24 hours.  This was Rick’s first experience of allowing an animal to leave on their own.  He said it was an amazing experience and the time with Merlin was precious.  No regrets.  He said it expanded his view of life, giving him deeper awareness of life and how precious it is, and not to waste one second of it.

I am learning allowing is love, as I have to step outside of my emotions, it does not matter what I think or believe.  It is about the other beings experience.

Thank you Rick and Merlin for letting me to be a part of your experience, an opportunity for me to learn more about allowing.  My hat is off to you.

Experience

Everything we do in a day is an experience.  Simple things like washing our face, drinking coffee, sitting down, getting up, all are experiences we don’t even notice.  When was the last time you really experienced getting up out of a chair?   Were you really present to all the actions  your body took  to allow you to get up out of the chair?    I can’t answer for you and for myself, nope, no awareness at all of taking that action with my body.  Totally automatic pilot.

We have hundreds/thousands of experiences everyday.   Why do I bring this up, what is the point?  Our animals.

As adult humans we are in charge of our experiences.  We are making choices all day as to what we are doing or experiencing.  Not so for animals.  Their lives are lived in a boundary that we create.  What they eat, when they go outside, where they sleep, etc., and there is nothing wrong with that.  If they are living with a human they chose that way of living or that way of experiencing life.  I want it very clear no one is a victim here.  Nothing happens to anyone without their permission on the higher level.

Everyday life works fine until we reach a day where the animal is old or the animal is very sick.  We are in a position to make choices and those choices will affect their experience.  With an old animal if we choose to put them down, so they don’t suffer old age, we have taken away their opportunity to experience old age fully.  With a very sick animal the same applies.  If we put them down we cut short their experience.

This is really tricky ground here.  We have our point of view and animals have their point of view of life and they are very different.  All the time when I am working with an animal and their human I see the differences in their points of view.  The human will be upset thinking their animal is suffering and the animal will be what is the big deal with the human?  I’m ok.

My point in bringing this topic up is; our experiences are how we grow, expand and evolve.  My most difficult  experiences were when I grew the most.  It took me outside of what I knew and showed me something more about myself.

There is no right or wrong here.  The animals nudged me to bring this up so their humans could step back and take a bigger look.  No quilt, finger pointing, simply take a look.  With what the animals have taught me I no longer see life so black and white.  Many shades of grey in between.  I am very grateful for that.

Happy 4th

Has been awhile.

On this day of celebrating our Independence, I want to take a moment to give thanks to those who brought us to Independence and the sacrifices they made to achieve independence.

My question to myself is where could I do more to achieve inner independence.  To liberate the quiet voice inside me that really knows everything.  It is hard to hear the quiet voice when the loud voice is so noisy, thinks it knows everything and just does not shut up. 

It is the quiet voice that can help us when something is wrong with an animal.  It is the loud often emotional voice that keeps us from the knowing of the quiet voice.  My silence for the last months on the blog is that I have been working on getting quiet.  Of becoming more aware of the noisy voice and taking a moment to get quiet.  When I get quiet everything around me quiets down. 

I just realized that is what I do when I am working with a horse.  I learned a long time ago being upset and agitated when doing something with a horse gets you in trouble fast and often hurt.  Horses take a quiet steady hand and I know how to do that.  Now I can take that and bring it into other areas.  Simple. 

You can trust those quiet little nudges you get when there is a problem with your animal.  Often when I am working with someone and their animal and I tell the person what their animal showed me they will say I felt that and did not trust it. 

On this day of Independence take a moment and thank your quiet voice.  It is always there for us.  We just have to get quiet enough to listen. 

Lesson of a Mama Cow ll

You just have to love the Universe’s sense of humor. 

Being an older human I like printed copies of my posts.  So after I sent my post off into cyber space yesterday I went to make a printed copy.  Since I had written about patience the Universe smiled and gave me a little test.

About a third of the page was printed when the printer stopped. The on button was flashing and the printer made a beeping sound.  In my limited way with these things I did something, then another something, still no printing. 

In the middle of this the four legged being I live with decided she required my full attention with her piercing voice.  I tried to ignore her.  She was not to be denied.  My printer and computer were not talking.  Me, no patience in sight. 

As I was about to boil over, I looked at myself and I started laughing.  The whole event was perfectly orchestrated to give me the opportunity for me to see my lack of patience works against me.  I thought about the mama cow and realized patience is possible. 

With my improved attitude I put the demanding one on my lap, turned the printer off, unplugged it from the computer and started over.  It is amazing what a change of attitude makes, as my printer then gave me three copies of the post.

Give me animals anytime.  Thanks mama cow for being a wonderful role model. 

Lesson of a Mama Cow

There are a lot of cattle in the area I live in and with something I see all the time I don’t really pay attention to them.  They are simply a part of the scenery.

Several days ago as I was driving past a pasture with cattle in it, I heard “Look at me”.  I slowed the car and there was a cow staring at me.  She had a roughly two month old bull calf nursing on her. I stopped the car and watched her and the calf.  The calf was butting his head against her udder so the milk would drop down.

She stood absolutely still while he nursed and she wanted me to know she likes her job raising this calf.  That she is really good at it.

I realized as I watched how patient she was, standing quietly, allowing the calf butt her to get his milk.  The look on her face was peaceful, content and patient.

The patience is what really grabbed me.  I was being shown through her, this is what patience looks like.   It was a very humbling moment to realize this mama cow has patience and I do not.

Patience is up.  Thank you mama cow for being there setting a lovely example for me to follow.  I have some work to do.

Clarity on What I Do ll

I want to extend, expand on the post I wrote 4/3,  “Clarity on What I Do”.

It seems to me that people think being a telepath means that person, me, has access to everything in the other beings mind and life.  I do not have the right to blast into any beings mind or life.  I can only have the connection to that being by their permission.  And I am only allowed to see what they want me to see.  It is not a free for all, parlor tricks, or a spectator sport.

There is a great deal of responsibility and discipline to this work and when I made the agreement with the animals I took that on willingly. They hold me accountable everyday.

If I use the gift irresponsibly the Universe will come down on me like a ton of bricks.  The animals themselves made that clear to me when I first started this work twenty years ago.  They made it clear I was to take what they showed me and relay that exactly to their human. No edits, interpretations, or deletions on my part.  And they hold my feet to the fire on that. The animals made it crystal clear if I did not relay exactly to their human, they would stop showing me anything.

Something else, when I am out in the world, I am not able to see anything with those around me.  I mind my own business.  It is not my job to interfere in anyone’s life.  I don’t want to know about anyone else’s life.  Unless I am asked to connect then I will open up to that animal.  However, just because they show me something, I may not be able to do anything.  If I don’t have the human on board, my  hands are tied.

I have to remember nothing happens to anyone without their creation and permission.  No one is a victim.  That is another important piece to doing this job.  My job is to listen, period.

It is very humbling to know I am not in charge   I am blessed to have all of you.

What can I say? 2

Yesterday I realized, with a lot help from the animals, that I did not mention them in my post on the 25th.  They reminded me how our upsets affect them and how vulnerable they are.  I have written about this in past posts. 

In the post on the 25th when I said “And how I am does have an effect on everything around me.”  I should have mentioned animals specifically in the everything.

Me remembering I do affect the animals around me, with how I am, will help me to be more aware of what I am doing right now.  It makes it less general and more real and closer to me.  It is not something out there, it is right here.

I am glad they brought this to my attention as it is important and I feel very foolish for forgetting to include them.  Maybe it is better this way as they get there own post. 

They remind me frequently what a stupid human I am.  With them riding herd on me I don’t have to worry about getting a big head.  Thanks guys. 

What can I say?

For weeks there has been so much rolling around in my head, I could not figure out where to start, what to write.  So that is why it has been awhile since I have written.

To say the least it is a wild ride right now.  I have asked myself did I really sign up for this?  Yeah I did.  If I am learning anything, it is I am responsible for my life. Which means my thoughts, actions, and what comes out of my mouth. 

What does that have to do with what is going on? 

I am blessed I get to talk to people from all over the country.  What I am hearing is quite a bit of upset.  I listen.  Then I share the decisions I am making. 

I asked myself the question, can I change what happened in the big picture? No I can’t. If I can’t affect the big picture where does that leave me?  It leaves me with the responsibility of choosing how I respond to what happened.  I realized if I choose to be upset then I am putting a negative vibration into the collective. Does that help anything? No. 

I can only make choices for myself and those choices have an effect on the rest of the world.  My being upset puts a negative out.  My being calm, peaceful is a positive out.   I am learning it is that simple.  In each moment I get to choose how I am.  And how I am does have an effect on everything around me and beyond. 

Throw a pebble onto the surface of a calm pond and ripples flow out from where the pebble went in.  That’s me.  I create ripples with how I am.  Those ripples go out and touch everything around me 

I believe the Divine knows what it is doing.  If I take my attention off the big picture and place it on my picture, that is the best I can do.  I am doing my part.  The rest is out of my control.  Thank God.  It is so simple when I allow me to Be.                 

Happy Solstice

On this solstice eve I wish you a happy end of the dark period and welcome to the return of light. Thank heaven.  This past month of the days being shorter and colder has been a really tough time for myself and everyone I talked to, human and animal.

It has felt like being squeezed hard.  Of being pushed to live from a higher place and a dying off of the lower less functional place in us.  A really wild ride.  There have been days where I felt I could barely keep my head above water.

Even though it has not felt great, the good news is with the solstice tomorrow the energy shift is complete for now, things are easing up a bit.

For myself I feel all this is pushing is encouraging me to be more responsible for how I live my life.  To be more aware of what I am thinking, saying and feeling. That means catching the negative stuff before I act on it.  Catch it at the thought stage, being more aware of what I am thinking in a given moment.

We tend to function on auto pilot.  Not being very aware of what is going on in our heads.  Stuff flies out of our mouths with little awareness of what we are saying and how it may affect those around us, especially our animals.  I see the affects on animals all the time when I am working with them.

My new years resolution is I am committed to taking a higher responsibility for how I live and conduct myself every day.  Which means being in the moment, being present to myself right now and catching the garbage in my head. No small task.

The animals are showing me how much easier it is on them when I am present, calmer and not spewing negative energy.  I am grateful to them for what they show me about myself.

Happy solstice!  The sun is coming back.