Attitude II

In the aftermath of my Attitude post I really started to beat myself up.  Judging myself.  Putting a great deal of pressure which just put me in a downward spiral of upset.  I had to give myself some slack.  Having awareness of my attitude does not come in one big awareness.  No, it comes in lots, lots and lots of little awareness’s over a span of time.  Like the rest of my life!

As I said in the Attitude post our animals are not victims in their lives with us.  So there was another place I could take pressure off myself.  The cat with me gets to have experiences of living with a human by her choice.  And there are times I do not have a great attitude.  Mostly she ignores me, as cats do.  Dogs and horses are different.  They are much more aware of our attitudes good or not so good.  Also they are more likely to suck the grey clouds in to create balance.

And everything is just perfect.  I believe we live in a big school on this planet.  All our experiences have the capability to teach us about ourselves.  Same for animals on their level.

I realized I go off to off the rails.  Then I get to be aware of the attitude and put myself back on the rails.  Remembering attitude is energy.  Up or down.  No judgment.  My judgment just creates upset and stress.

I am responsible for how I am in any given moment.  It is a process, it is living in a body.  It is a great adventure which we share with our animals.

I appreciate all of of you.  Thank you for sharing the journey.

P.S

I am in the process of looking into Podcasts and YouTube, exploring how to use them as a way of sharing.  A bit intimidating and a steep learning curve.  Also more intimate as its my voice, Podcasts, and image YouTube that will be out there.  Really scary and could be fun.  Little steps grasshopper.

Attitude

This morning I had an Aah Ha moment.

Attitude is energy

Animals almost daily show me the grey clouds that come off of their humans.  The grey clouds are a low vibration energy that come off us when we are upset.  This energy floats in the air in our houses and our animals see this energy as grey clouds.

I show the animal the clouds belong to their human and is for their human to deal with.  That the animal is to leave the clouds float.  I do this as animals will often suck the clouds into themselves to bring the house back into balance.  In sucking in the clouds it lowers the animal’s energy and over time can cause an imbalance in the animal’s body.

I am also explaining to the human that their upset has an affect on their animal and I suggest the human say to the animal “I am upset, I will deal with the upset, you are doing a good job.”  Otherwise the animal thinks they have done something wrong to upset the human.  This helps create clarity on both sides

Back to my Aah Ha.  I have used the word upset in connection with the grey clouds for a long time.  This morning when I got “attitude is energy” I then made the connection that upset is an attitude.

That lead to, my attitude is an energy that affects my animal.  I am having a feeling stupid moment that I did not see this until now.  I got the upset part, I just did not get the upset is an attitude part.

This brings me to being aware of my attitude.  What is my attitude in any moment?  My attitude affects my animal and everything around me.

This means I am responsible.  I am stopping here as this has just rocked my world.

Out and About

Yesterday I was at a Home and Pet Expo as a presenter.  I was invited by the Paws to People Bridges to Cures group to be at their booth for two hours to talk to people.  It was an opportunity for me to go outside my comfort zone and I am glad I did.

One of the volunteers at the booth had her Chihuahua cross Gigi with her.  Gigi and her human Donna where sitting close to where I was sitting.  Gigi came over and sat down in front of me and stared.  She invitied me to touch her and as I was stroking her she showed me how worried she was.  Her concern was how was she to protect Donna in this busy place.  There were other dogs being walked around who where service dogs and lots of humans.

I showed Gigi that her human would do the protecting of them.  I had observed that Donna was very calreful with Gigi and how people approached the little dog.  People tend to walk up to small dogs reach down and start touching them.  They are cute and small.  Donna did not allow people to do that which was really nice for Gigi.  It was a relief for Gigi to not have to be the protector in this busy place.

I saw the same with the larger dogs there, they were equally worried about protection and how to function in this place with many humans and quite a few dogs.

My point is have an awaremess when you take your dog out in public.  Dogs are wired for territory of pack.  We take them out of their territory and put them in many territories.  Their wiring says you have to defend your territory from outsiders.  We take them into someone else’s territory and the hard wiring is there.  I am amazed at how well dogs function in a world we created.  We put them in situations that go against their nature and they do amazingly well.

I have to remember no one is a victim.  Dogs that live with humans are there by their choice.  Living with a human is an opportunity for them to learn about human wiring and how humans function.

When you are out with your dog, your dog is asking you to be a strong leader.  All the dogs at the Expo were on leashes and I saw that was a comfort for them.  It created a boundary for them to function within.

After Gigi understood Donna would protect them she walked away from me sat down next to Donna, relaxed and totally ignored me, which made me laugh.

Opposites

2018 is definitely an interesting ride.  Everyone human and animal are finding this new level of energy a bit of a challenge to live with.

In this challenge we are all experiencing something that I see showing up when I work, which are opposites.  Vaccinate, don’t vaccinate, feed raw, don’t feed raw, crate, don’t crate, leash, don’t leash and on it goes.  In these opposites are very strong opinions on each side of an issue.  What does this mean for our animals?

I have to remember these animals chose to live with a human.  So no victims.

In the work I do with a veterinarian in Colorado this issue of opposites comes up a lot.  My work allows me to see the effects of opposites on animals.  What I see are animals that are out of balance in the function of their bodies.  My job is to relay to the vet how the animal feels about the imbalance and the vet’s job is to find a way to physically bring the body into balance again.

Animals know about balance.  It is hard wired into their systems and it is not a thought process.  They innately know.  Humans on the other hand find balance a bit harder as we have a thought process about everything.  Which creates all these opinions about opposites.

I am not saying anything is wrong with an opposite.  However I am seeing the effect on an animal who lives with an opposite for a long period of time.

What is the solution?    Finding the middle spot between two opposites or balance.  It means we can take from both opposites.  It is not one or the other which is where we get stuck.  I am learning to step back from an issue which allows me a 360 degree view of the issue.  From that place I can see both opposites and the spot in the middle.  It allows me to stand in the middle of two opposites and draw from each into the middle.  When I do that I find balance and it is a nice place to be.

Also when I sit in the middle I find answers.   So simple.

Do?

Here we are in 2018. I think it is going to be an interesting ride. 

In the last few weeks I have had two different opportunities to talk to people who had come across a dog wandering on the street.  In both cases the people were concerned the dog would get hit by a car. The humans decided to intervene as they both felt a great deal of concern. The dogs, however, did not see there was a problem.  If they got hit by a car then that was what happens when you don’t pay attention.     

There was a great deal of conversation with me trying to explain the dogs point of view.  I saw a huge difference between the human and dog way of seeing it .   

This exchange left me with questions.  What are we supposed to do seeing a dog on the street?  When is it appropriate to intervene?  Do they want us to intervene?  Do we have the right to intervene?  I am not sure there are definitive answers.

Let me give the dog point of view.  First, they do not see themselves as victims, that judgment comes from humans.  Animals do not have judgments or a complicated thought process.  They are hard wired for whatever species they are, in this case dogs.  They do not have all the mental stuff humans have.  Life simply is for them.

I will share where I have come to on this subject.  I used to be the queen of thinking animals needed to be rescued.  I thought I knew what was best for them.  I look back and I cringe.  I see now I used  rescue as a distraction to keep me from looking at my own life. The truth was I wanted to be rescued so I thought they did too.    

It was not until years later when I started to look at my own life and realize it was up to me to make changes that I also started to see animals as beings with their own life path.  I came to the realization I am only responsible for me, a huge turning point.  The more I took responsibility for myself the less I focused on everyone else’s lives, human or animal.

Now when I see a dog on the street I ask “Is there anything you want from me?”  They say “no” and go on their way.

I leave it to you to come to your own conclusion.  There is no right or wrong way here.  It is a point of view. 

Since I have come to the awareness of letting the world be, no one is asking me to rescue them.  A nice peaceful place to be.

Smiles.    

Winter Solstice

Today is the eve of the Winter Solstice and for me it is the end of the year.  We have been in a very large shift of energy as we are approaching the Winter Solstice.  The past few weeks everything has been very shaken up and we all, humans and animals alike have been feeling it.  The way it shows up for me is I feel I/we are being pushed to step it up another notch. The stepping it up is about being responsible for how we are in our lives.  It applies to the animals too, on their level. 

This past week I have just wanted to put my head under the covers and stay in bed.  I felt very scrambled and had a tough time functioning.  I had to remind myself all is fine, that I was feeling the affect of the shift in energy and things would settle down after the Winter Solstice.  I know this and it still does not make going through it any easier.  Everyone I worked with or talked to was feeling it too. 

The Universe had a helper in the cat, her demands to be fed meant I had to get out of bed. 

Here I am on the eve of a new year.  First I want to thank 2017.  It moved me across the country and put me in a place to expand.  It will be very interesting to see what this new year holds.  I am allowing myself to be willing to go outside my comfort zone in my life.  Not sure what that looks like and I don’t need to know right now.  I have decided to embrace this shift and let it take me beyond what I know.

I want to thank all of you for following my blog.  Knowing you are there is a great comfort and it keeps the door open for what wants to be written.         

I wish you all a Happy Winter Solstice!  Lets ride this wonderful wave just for the fun of it!  Lots of smiles. 

Quality?

It has been awhile.

Lots of shake up and movement going on and all of that has me moving back to New Mexico on Nov. 9th.  The whole process took time and focus to get me to the place where I knew what I had to do, so writing got put on the back burner.  Then this morning a topic that keeps popping up grabbed me and here I am.

I hear over and over from people when I am working with them and their animal the concept  “quality of life” comes up in regard to their animals life.   Very often “quality of life” gets factored into the decision on whether to put an animal down or not.  I have a lot of animals yelling in my head, I am fine!

What is “quality of life”?  Who determines that?  What determines that?  Where did the idea come from?  What does it look like?  I have no clue what the answers are to those questions.  I can, however, tell you animals have no concept of “quality of life”.  From their point of view, if they are breathing they are alive and have life.  They live in the moment.

Recently I worked with a dog who could no longer get up on his own.  His human felt since he had no “quality of life” it was time to put him down.  The dog was very clear he wanted to stay in his body.

This dog had a very strong will and the experience of not being able to get up under his own power was an opportunity to accept help.  It was also an opportunity to learn his will could only do so much which he did not accept for a year.  He was blessed with a human who was able to care for him for a year, giving him the time to work it out with his will.

Just before he died on his own he showed me that his will could only do so much and that there was a bigger movement then his will.  This was a huge growth experience for him.  On the surface he had no “quality of life” yet his lack of mobility was a catalyst for him to figure out his will could only do so much.

This example is an extreme and I used it to demonstrate the concept “quality of life”.  It is not a straight line or black and white.  AND, I am NOT making some point about not putting animals down.  I am simply giving some food for thought about this concept of “quality of life”.

This work I do with animals has totally changed how I view life and it allows me the opportunity to share what I learn.  I share and you get to make up your own mind on what works for you and your animals.  It is so individual to each human and animal combination.  There are no blanket statements or one size fits all.

The adventure continues and it will be very interesting to see what unfolds in New Mexico.  Head em up, move em out!

Irma’s Visit

Irma left us early yesterday morning.  Everyone started breathing again.   I didn’t realize I was holding my breath until she was gone. 

The posts on “Experience” and “Allow”  that I wrote a couple of weeks ago came to life during Irma’s visit.   As the leading edge of her moved in on Monday morning I was given an opportunity to have the experience of bending.  My MO is to stand straight and ridged and do it myself.  By noon I began to see staying in a trailer surrounded by large oak trees was not the best place to be.   My wonderful friends who live across the road had already offered the cat and I stay with them.   I packed some things and the cat and I went across the road.  Why did I think bending was hard?  It felt really good to have company and feel safe. 

As I watched out of the picture window I felt pity for the trees who were being pushed roughly around by the wind and rain of Irma.   I had to stop and remind myself this is their experience.  They were not victims.  Why is it so hard for me to get that my pity is so unwanted.  They were fine.  And what did I think I could do for them?  Bring them inside?  

At 8 A.M. Tuesday morning I went across the road to take care of the ponies and check the trailer.  They and the trailer were fine, a relief.  That is when I noticed one of the large oak trees was down.   It was on the west side of the trailer and had fallen away from the trailer.  I walked to the tree, not only was it down but trees in it’s path were down too.  I really had to rein my emotions in and go to the allowing place.  The tree was glad I did that.  The tree showed me it was ok and that dying was a slow process.  In that process it had time to come to the realization that being rigid and not able to bend is what brought it down.  It showed me this was a huge lesson it was learning.  This was part of it’s inner growth and expansion.  It is life.  Dying is the greatest opportunity to evolve, expand. 

I told a friend in Colorado about the tree and she asked me for pictures.  Immediately the tree asked me not do this, it needed privacy.  I honored the request.  Dying is a very private time.

Irma brought a lot of experiences to process.   A big one is gratitude, not taking anything for granted.  Seeing the Divine at work in everything.   I am blessed beyond measure. 

Middle of Night Shakes

Last night I woke up at 3 A.M.  my mind filled with fear.  My fear was about Hurricane Irma and her visiting here.  I decided to stop using the word hit, visit is less ominous.  I realized my attitude of fear was affecting me and the animals in my care.  I was not being a strong leader for them.

Fear wants to control.  It wants to dictate and have things be it’s way.  The fear did not like the idea that it could not control being touched by Irma.  I began to see this as a lesson in surrender to the higher.  The higher attitude is; be aware of what is going on, take actions to prepare and keep my attitude accepting of what is.  When I did these things I felt calmer and I could see the animals were calmer.

As things happen I am learning to ask what does this have to teach me?  Rather then get caught up in the fear and drama.  What is there to learn about seeing things from a different point of view then I normally do.  Being aware how I am and how it affects everything around me.  If I get on the doom and gloom kick and place a lot of negative attention on Irma then I am contributing to the disturbance of her.  I am connected to everything around me.  Being higher or lower ripples out and it especially ripples out to the animals.   They do not understand my upset, all they know is the human is upset and they think they did something wrong.

There are people and animals facing much worse south of here, so I told my fear to get over itself.

What a time to be on Earth.  I am being given the opportunity to be more then I ever thought I could be. There are bumps and the bumps are gifts to evolve and grow.  Wow.

Labor Day

For me Labor Day is the end of summer which means the end of the lovely long hot days.  I am a heat and sunlight girl. 

Out of the blue this morning I started thinking about what Labor Day celebrates.  Labor!  On the heels of this came the realization, everything I use and have was created by someone else’s labor.  Everything!  Just blew me away.  It sounds really stupid that I never really stopped to think how the things I use got here. 

I started to imagine the thousands and thousands of people using their labor to make all the things in my life.   Then is broadened to all the people in service jobs, whose labor also contributes to my ease of life.  Truck drivers, waitresses, check out people, nurses, tech people, pilots, the list is huge. 

I am awe struck and it is a humbling moment.  Without all of them I can’t do my job.  That puts it is a certain perspective. 

I want to thank everyone out there for their labor.  Your labor makes my life doable, comfortable and allows me to do my  job. 

Thank you and bless you all.   Happy Labor Day!